I turn 38 in a little more than an hour, and I’m resenting France for getting me there six hours earlier than New York would have. Not looking forward to my new age, though 37 has not been a walk in the park either. The world went ass-backwards mere weeks after my birthday last year, and it has remained fairly challenging, let’s say, since then – both globally and personally.
But as I was sitting here staring sourly at my computer screen, wanting to write something nice about the weekend but not feeling a bit of real positivity, I decided to put Spotify on. I guess based on my prior activity, the app suggested I listen to a playlist called “New Music Friday France” and out of curiosity, I hit play. The first song was French rap, which 99% of the time I find super awkward. But then I listened to the words and, since I’m always looking for and finding meaning in the flimsiest of “signs,” I became convinced that this song – La Pluie by Orelsan – was sending a direct message to me:
Toujours autant de pluie chez moi
Mais il fait quand même beau, il fait beau.
(Translation: “Always so much rain where I’m from, but it’s nice out anyway, it’s nice out.”)
The thing is, the song really is speaking to me, in ways I don’t feel like going into here. Suffice it to say, there’s been a bunch of both literal and figurative rain in my life lately, but for the past month or two, it feels nice anyway.
The song continues (this is a word-for-word translation because I can’t be trusted to do a more interpretive one):
“Where I’m from, there’s sun 40 days a year
You could spend most of the year waiting for it.
I used to look out the window, closed up in my room,
I used to pray for the end of the downpour and to go skate the ramp.
I knew the sound of the rain, the smell of wet concrete.
If I left, it was because I was afraid of rusting.
Soaked, I would have never thought,
That in the end I’d miss the bad weather.”
What started out as a slightly annoying song really grew on me, and now I think it’s incredible and I’ve listened to it like six times in a row. Here it is, if you’d like to give it a go yourself.
And now I feel buoyed enough to face the cruel march of time.
Have a good weekend! I hope that whether warm and sunny or rainy and cold chez vous, quand même il fait beau, so to speak.